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Day 15

In your own space, write a love letter to Fandom in general, to a particular fandom, to a trope, a relationship, a character, or to your flist/circle/followers. Share you love and squee as loud as you want to. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Dear fandom,

You’ve brought me more than I could ever really enumerate here. I mean, it was because I went to Azkatraz, a Potter con in 2009, that I met many of the people who are now close friends in RL. A lot of those people no longer share a fandom with me, but it doesn’t matter.

When I was twenty-one, I slapped my sister in the face and my mum kicked me out )
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Day 12

In your own space, post a rec for fannish spaces and resources - comms, challenges, twitters, tumblrs, etc. Tell us about where you hang out. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

This one’s tough for me because I basically hang out on my flist, or more occasionally my Tumblr dash; even when I hang out elsewhere it’s often like, a meta person’s LJ so I can discuss stuff in the comments.

Fannish resources:

[livejournal.com profile] crack_broom: years’ worth of high-quality, tagged Harry Potter recs.

[livejournal.com profile] potterfests: given the fest-centric nature of Potter fandom, especially on LJ/DW, this is absolutely necessary and a fantastic resource.

[community profile] halfamoon: an annual fourteen-day challenge celebrating female characters. It starts TOMORROW and runs until Valentine’s Day! You can create fic or art or icons or vids, or do recs or meta or anything. It’s great.

General resources:

[tumblr.com profile] writingwithcolor: several mods from different backgrounds answer questions about writing BME/POC characters. I found it very helpful when struggling with whether an idea for some original fiction was appropriative - Googling previously having led me to various ideas and articles that were inappropriate or unhelpful for various reasons.

[tumblr.com profile] bisexualbooks: my reading fail last year means I’ve still read staggeringly few bisexual characters in my bibliophile life. (Two, both of them ‘hedonistic’.) But this tumblr is a fantastic resource nonetheless.
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FYI, my January DD fic - Dirty Uncle Charlie porn - is up here. Read the warnings and have fun :D

Day 11

In your own space, talk about a creator. Show us why you think they are amazing. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

This seemed impossibly difficult; there are so many creators whose work I love. But I mentioned [livejournal.com profile] lizardspots to the relatively-new-to-fandom [livejournal.com profile] mywitch the other week, and [livejournal.com profile] mywitch didn’t know who she was. Which is totally fair but made me sad because Lizard’s art is FANTASTIC and I don’t want people to miss out on it - particularly given that [livejournal.com profile] mywitch is a massive Snape fan and Lizard did so much great Snape art.

[livejournal.com profile] lizardspots isn’t really in fandom any more though she’s still a friend of mine and sporadically updates her LJ to let people know how her life is going. She has a massive masterlist with lots of different characters, including cute gen and pervy porn. Her work is mostly Potter but there’s a decent chunk of other fandoms too. She’s got a sly wit, a lot of atmosphere, gorgeously detailed backgrounds, and did I mention the porn?

cut for LOADS of recs - mostly HP, a bit of Merlin and White Collar )
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Let’s talk about Cursed Child in script vs production. Now obviously the production adds a vast amount of detail & light and shade to the script that can’t exist in the script alone. That’s theatre. But there are a few elements of that and a few outright changes that I want to document for people.

NB: I’ve seen Cursed Child four times in the last seven months, and have seen more than one actor for several key roles including Albus, Scorpius, and Harry. That said my memory is not perfect!

#1 and #2 are the actual script changes, fyi. Everything else is about implication.

script vs production )
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Day 13

In your own space, write about a moment in fandom that meant a lot to you. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

A moment is very hard to choose! The Victory Ball at Diacon was full of gorgeous, shining moments: looking round at all these people having a blast, eating and dancing and laughing with my friends and knowing that we did it.

The better choice, though, might be Easter 2010. That’s when my grandmother died unexpectedly - well, as unexpectedly as any death that happens to someone in her late eighties. It was the Easter holidays and my flatmates had all gone home already. I hadn’t wanted to go home so quickly (issues with the family) but then she died. I was taking the train in a few days anyway and the train’s expensive at the last minute; it didn’t occur to me to ask for a lift.

So I spent a few days on my own, and what I mostly did was lie on the floor of my room with my laptop and read every fic from [livejournal.com profile] hp_getlucky as it was posted. The theme of “luck” meant that the fic was mostly happy - even the angstier stuff, like one where Draco gets addicted to Felix Felicis, would have a happy ending. It was exactly what I needed at the time, regularly posted & predictably happy fic. I don’t think I commented on any of it. It all seemed too fraught, and I couldn’t think of what to say. (I should try going back to it now, actually.) But despite the bit of guilt there, that makes it a more meaningful memory for me in a way. Usually I try to comment and participate and be part of the ecosystem that encourages fans to create and spend time here, and I think that’s important. But I didn’t do that this time and fandom was still there to give me exactly what I needed at the time I needed it - not in a personal way because people know me, but just because I was a reader who found it at the right moment. It felt like a gift.
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Day 7

In your own space, create a fanwork. Make a drabble, a ficlet, a podfic, or an icon, art or meta or a rec list. Arts and crafts. Draft a critical essay about a particular media. Put together a picspam or a fanmix. Write a review of a Broadway show, a movie, a concert, a poetry reading, a museum trip, a you-should-be-listening-to-this-band essay. Compose some limericks, haikus, free-form poetry, 5-word stories. Document a particular bit of real person canon. Take some pictures. Draw a stick-figure comic. Create something. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Title: Melted
Word count: ~200
Rating: Universal
Summary: London has no snow.
Content: fluff
Author’s Notes: I thought I’d use this opportunity to write one of my owed Twelve Days of Christmas drabbles ficlets. This one’s for [livejournal.com profile] enchanted_jae, who requested ‘Harry/Draco, kiss in the snow.’

Melted )
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Day 10

In your own space, share your love for a trope, cliché, kink, motif, or theme. (More than one is okay, too.) Tell us about it, tell us why you love it, give us some examples and recs. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Thinking about this, I actually found the underlying element that ties together a lot of my kinks, both sexual (clothed/naked, humiliation) and narrative (hurt/comfort, forced confessions). That is forced vulnerability. Sometimes in my favourite fics that vulnerability is respected, and other characters are kind in the face of it. Sometimes they’re very much not, which is also fabulous :D

I feel like it’s totally obvious why I love it - it’s deep enough in my id that it’s hard to explain, and of course you share it you just nodded like “yes, of course.” Enemy ships often involve a moment where the enemies recognise that the other person is really a person in the same way they are, and not unrelatedly, vulnerable to hurt - and my love for enemy ships and forced vulnerability is probably pretty chicken-and-egg. (Buffy/Faith, my ultimate OTP, is sooooo good for this. I also have a theory that it’s a significant part of why Harry/Draco shippers love the Sectrumsempra scene so much, and the idea that Harry left scars.) And on the kinkier side, part of why I love Draco getting beaten down so much is his privileged background getting turned all around. The fluffier kinkfic I write does this backwards: it tends to linger on doms being careful of their subs’ sore spots.

It plays into my darker kinks to have vulnerability exploited, and my softer side to have people be kind in the face of it. And I really do believe that respecting vulnerability, whether or not the vulnerable people are good people, is a fundamental requirement of morality and civilisation. It’s a fundamental tenet of my lefty liberalism, now that I think about it. I have strong feelings about civil liberties, about prison reform, and about the end of the death penalty worldwide. For me all those things are deeply connected to the idea that just because the government has physical & legal & psychological power over you doesn’t mean they should use it - in fact, very much the opposite.

Let’s get to the recs before I get any more pompous :D )
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Day 14
Go forth and commit an act of kindness. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it, tell us about it if you’re comfortable doing so.

I thought I’d do one of the missing Snowflake Challenges, since the mods assure us there’s no hard deadline. And I’m going to count something I did today. I went to the anti-Trump Women’s March here in London. It was great: a really positive atmosphere, despite the angst of the thing and the fact that 15 000 to 25 000 people were expected to show up and it was actually 100 000.

On a personal note, I’m glad I did it because I immediately felt so much better than yesterday. Doing something helped a lot, as did the community aspect. Both my sisters and my mum were there, and I marched with the female cousin of mine who lives in London and two American friends of hers. YAY SISTERHOOD.

A Japanese tourist asked me what was happening. I said it was an anti-Trump women’s march, and he expressed confusion because “this is the UK” - and that’s the reason I’m counting this as an act of kindness, because I was able to explain it politely and also, thanks to my job, avoid using the English most native speakers don’t realise is difficult (i.e. phrasal verbs). It was helpful for me too, because I’m a measurable goals sort of person and this is the first demonstration I’ve been on that didn’t really have one? Not a shared one, anyway. Not least because while I know some disagree, I do not think Pence would be an improvement.

So I told him that it was in solidarity with American women, as well as brown & black & immigrant Americans. And that it was to express our public grief and anger. To push forward a little on myriad feminist & lefty causes closer to home - I saw Repeal The Eighth signs (re: the appalling lack of abortion rights for Irish & Northern Irish women) and tampon tax signs as well as anti-Brexit ones. To inflict what international pressure we can on Trump & Republicans, particularly given the British/American “Special Relationship” and Trump’s being a bit of an Anglophile. And that because Britain is significantly more left-wing than the US, the US has elected several presidents who kind of horrified Britons, most famously George W Bush. But this is on a new scale, and this is not normal. That was the most important reason, I realised as I was saying it. To show that This Is Not Normal.

the signs were epic - more details here, photos on Tumblr )

Love From England

Friday, 20 January 2017 06:53 pm
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My heart has been hurting all day. Tomorrow is the London Women’s March, in solidarity with my American sisters (and everyone else). In the meantime here’s a sonnet for America, from England. Or possibly for all my American siblings in the struggle from me.

Love From England )

Roz Kaveney, poet & author & activist, wrote a sequence called The Poet To Her Young Comrades a few years ago. I was rereading them today (here's the original post) and beg her indulgence in reposting this angry one, because I think you might find it helpful too.

The Poet To Her Young Comrades 3 )
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(Day 7 is coming!)

Day 8

In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

1. My writing is good. Not all the time, but when I reread there are moments that are funny and unexpected or have a nice metaphor.

2. I give good presents. I put thought into it and generally manage to find something very specific to make that person happy.

3. I’m easy to talk to. (Someone said this on my love meme thread and it made me really happy.) I can even be charming.

DAY 9:

Send feedback to two fannish people — they can be anyone you want: a writer who’s made you happy, a moderator of your favorite exchange (not us!), a fanartist you avidly follow… There are so many possibilities. Just let someone know you appreciate their work.

Done! I sent it to a couple of people on AO3, since I find myself leaving slightly fewer comments there.
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Day 04

Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them. Afterwards, leave a comment in this post with the equivalent of "I did it!"

I’m going to count meeting [livejournal.com profile] mywitch IRL this week :)

Day 5

In your own space, post recs for at least three fanworks that you did not create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Ron/Draco, Harry/Draco, and multifandom recs under the cut )

Day 06

In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish. If any wishes are granted, we'd love it if you link them to this post.

Art of one of my fics. This has only happened once, for Mrs Malfoy’s Finishing School For Young Ladies (as a private gift, I don’t think she posted it publically or I’d link) and it was EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE WANTED AND MORE.

2. Tropey femmeslash. This has definitely got better but still, I feel like femmeslash has this fabulous pile of original, lyrical writing - but that reputation, particularly within HP, intimidates fans. And sadly there isn’t much people having fun and letting their id out to play, throwing their copper/thief Diana/Alex handcuffs porn and Hermione/Pansy slavefic and Natasha/Pepper soulmates AU at the wall to see what sticks. DO THAT. If you wanted to write deaged or animal transformations or fuck or die for Cat/Kara in particular, I would not be opposed. *coughcough*

3. People feeling comfortable disagreeing with me on meta posts, and being okay with me doing the same. Potter fandom is still in, basically, a trauma backlash: we were the big crazy wanky fandom, and then everyone got really focussed on being polite and avoiding wank to an EXTREME extent. And I feel like the Tumblr tussles, with fans who’re a lot more wanky because of the effects of Tumblr as a platform and not coming up through that history, have only made LJ Potter fandom more suspicious of disagreement. It is very Potter-focussed - my flisters who came up through Buffy or Doctor Who meta are much more able to violently yet politely disagree and debate in each other’s comments and stay friends. And it’s great.

4. Concrit :) For me anyway. And more comments for everybody!
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I saw Cursed Child again last night ♥ ♥ ♥ It was still atmospheric and exciting and beautiful. One of the phrases I keep using to talk about Cursed Child is Epic Friendship, with those capitals. It’s a phenomenon I’ve seen before but I hadn’t thought of it in quite those terms before. So to define: Epic Friendship, to me, is when the relationship itself is a grand story, given great and likely central weight in the narrative in all its nuances, strong and affirming and wonderful. And also when the friendship is central to the fight against evil.

So think of Buffy, Xander, Willow, and Giles, and them joining themselves to fight as one at the end of S4. The Doctor bringing all his companions back to help him. Everything about Steven Universe, most obviously in gem fusion (although that also has a sexual & romantic subtext, of course).

this is where the post gets spoilery for Cursed Child and Sherlock s4 so far )
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Title: Five Times Ron and Draco Almost Had Sex (And One Time They Did)
Word count: ~8600
Characters/pairings: Ron/Draco
Rating: Explicit
Summary: Flangst. Ron’s bringing Draco back to the Burrow for Christmas in their eighth year. He wasn’t expecting this particular problem.
Warnings: very slight exhibitionism & voyeurism
Author’s Notes: This was written for Kinky Kristmas, and for [livejournal.com profile] fangqueen.

On AO3

Five Times Ron and Draco Almost Had Sex (And One Time They Did) )

Sherlock S4 so far

Thursday, 12 January 2017 05:12 pm
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Will reply to comments later, sorry - I’m off to see Cursed Child for the fourth time again! With [livejournal.com profile] mywitch! YAYYYYY!

I’m not in Sherlock fandom but I’m sort of fandom-adjacent; I’ve read a bit of fanfic, and I have enough friends who’re in the fandom and enough awareness of fandom at large to have a (very) vague idea about it and its reactions. And I’ve caught up so I wanted to post this before the last episode airs. Now as ever you’re welcome to disagree; I’ve got dear dear RL friends who are also fans I disagree with on some stuff I’m a lot more invested in :D

Although I imagine the real disagreement will come from the shortly-forthcoming post about queerbaiting and Epic Friendship, because it will involve defending Cursed Child :P

Please to not spoil the next episode, I know nothing!

spoilers for Sherlock series 4 so far )
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I know! I thought I wasn’t going to do it and then I was just like I WANNA I LOVE A BANDWAGON.

Day 1

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I feel like these three together represent a lot of my fannish interests & obsessions.

Resting With The Enemy - hurt/comfort, forgiving oneself and others, recovering from the war

Utter Cockslut (A Worthy Cause) - limit-pushing kink within a loving established relationship, multishipping, D/s and assorted kinks

Dashing Heroics - snarky banter, Auror fic, getting each other on a deep level even if you’re really different

Day 2

In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

The works of Diana Wynne Jones. She was a British author of children’s fantasy novels and a star beyond stars; she’s a huge and acknowledged influence on some of today’s best-loved novelists, like Neil Gaiman and Frances Hardringe. She was also incredibly original; her novels varied enormously in plot and character and world.

this ended up being 600 words )

Day 03

In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

See here.
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I haven’t forgotten the drabble offer, fyi, and I’m going to do my best to get to all of them!

first, here is the sadly tiny books list for 2016 )

the top 5 and honourable mentions )
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So ten days ago I noticed a bunch of people had added me on DW and knew something had gone wrong with LJ. I did a quick flist check, this being in the middle of some Christmas madness, and saw. So you can probably already tell I think this is significant but not urgent.

Before I start: some of you have clearly realised this, because I started adding people and got subscribers back, but: Dreamwidth separates the two sides of friending people on Livejournal. If you subscribe to me, you see my entries on your flist. If you give me access, I can see your flocked entries. A lot of you are giving me access to your friends-only entries but not signing up to see my posts on your flist which seems like a mistake :)

I certainly think it’s a good idea to back up your LJ via Dreamwidth import: it’s amazingly quick and easy (although I keep my backup journal separate from my current Dreamwidth, because otherwise my DW entries would be twinned since I crosspost from there.) Dreamwidth in general has a lot of pluses over LJ and the people there tend to be fascinating and talented and erudite, even more than the average LJ comm, which is a pretty fucking high bar.

I actually think the biggest vulnerability for the English-speaking fan communities )

So in summary, we'll see. Import but do not panic.
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Somewhat belatedly, here are my New Year’s Resolutions for 2017. (The first of many catch-up posts.) First comes the round-up of my 2016 resolutions and how I did )

Two yeses and two partlys. Not as good as last year, but not bad.

And here are my 2017 resolutions )

Do you guys do resolutions? How’re they going?

*Do what you like with your body! Dieting is not inherently an act of self-hate (although it’s also not often an act of self-love.) But being a fat woman in the gym in the first two weeks of January just seems like it’ll be unpleasant.
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Title: Learn To Keep A Secret
Word count: ~300
Characters/pairings: Pansy/Draco
Rating: Universal
Summary: Sixth year changes everyone.
Warnings: Abortion
Author’s Notes: This is my fourth Twelve Days of Christmas drabble ficlet, for [profile] scarletladyysite, who requested ‘Draco/Pansy, secret.’ This turned out well angsty - I hope that’s okay, Fairy!

Learn To Keep A Secret )


Wednesday, 28 December 2016 04:50 am
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Title: Sentinel
Author: [personal profile] lokifan
Word count: ~200
Characters/pairings: Minerva/Hooch
Rating: Universal
Summary: Christmas Eve during Deathly Hallows.
Warnings: None
Author’s Notes: This is my fourth Twelve Days of Christmas drabble ficlet, for [livejournal.com profile] kellychambliss, who requested ‘Minerva/Hooch, Christmas Eve.’

Sentinel )


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