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lokifanI just finished a massive fest fic. Under a deadline, having been given many extensions, very kindly. It’s about twice as long as my previous longest fic - it’s the longest thing I’ve written, in fact, original or fanfic. (I should really get on an original novel draft.) I got a big rush of relief when I heard back from the mod but man, I barely have any feelings. All my feelings went into the last week of getting it done.
I have little-to-no sense of whether it’s good. I hope so, though!
More discussion of it later, perhaps, once I can claim it.
Mooooving on -
So my interwebs silence for the last few months has been a lot to do with this fic, as well as the various RL things that led to me needing extensions (a hideous cold, my BFF getting married, the joy of Hallowe’en.) And Episode Ignis, a DLC for my new fandom Final Fantasy XV, came out DAYS ago and I haven’t watched any playthroughs or done anything, because I knew it would cover me in Iggy feelings and I needed to finish this Potter fic.
And I’ve been free for nearly six hours (I finished the fic all night, then collapsed and slept all day) and I still haven’t watched it. I know it’s got a second ending, where you get to live in a happy AU instead of the tragedy of canon - and loooooool I love that even the creators are writing fix-it fic. But omg. Nooooo. I’m scared.
I WILL WATCH IT IN A MINUTE. Probably.
I do really, really want to enjoy some fandom time, playing and RPing and writing and reading, without the sense of omg I should be writing that fic. I’ve not been on Tumblr since Hallowe’en. I haven’t seen the new Star Wars. I haven’t seen Thor. So going on my FFXV Tumblr at least is gonna involve being enjoyably spoiled. And I love these characters so much, I want some more time with them.
But noooooo. OMG the trailer alone, it gives me so many feelings.
The music! Iggy so brave and alone! Ardyn’s “what good is a world that only lets you down?” (Ugh fucking RP giving me feelings about that shit.) Iggy and Ardyn briefly working together??? ‘Master Your Fate’ as an Iggy tagline. “I swore an oath to stand with Noct and keep him safe. Whatever it takes, I will protect him!” couwrhfiyarho;afewjsqubdauwedhf;w’efmprwngfuoaerh
And also, the fan theory that Iggy’s blindness isn’t an injury, but a price exacted because he used the Ring to help Noctis looks like it’s gonna be confirmed. And maybe my favourite one, that Luna’s death comes from that too - that Iggy swaps her life for Noct’s, and then never tells him. I love that partly, btw, because there are a few points where Iggy really reminds me of Giles to Noct’s Buffy, despite being more of a big-brother in age. The ruthless strategist to his young chosen warrior. So almost a version of what happens to Ben, or what Giles and Wesley both did again and again - making the ruthless choices necessary to save the world, the ones Buffy or Noct never could - that seems perfect.
But whatever it is, I know I’m gonna cry.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I have little-to-no sense of whether it’s good. I hope so, though!
More discussion of it later, perhaps, once I can claim it.
Mooooving on -
So my interwebs silence for the last few months has been a lot to do with this fic, as well as the various RL things that led to me needing extensions (a hideous cold, my BFF getting married, the joy of Hallowe’en.) And Episode Ignis, a DLC for my new fandom Final Fantasy XV, came out DAYS ago and I haven’t watched any playthroughs or done anything, because I knew it would cover me in Iggy feelings and I needed to finish this Potter fic.
And I’ve been free for nearly six hours (I finished the fic all night, then collapsed and slept all day) and I still haven’t watched it. I know it’s got a second ending, where you get to live in a happy AU instead of the tragedy of canon - and loooooool I love that even the creators are writing fix-it fic. But omg. Nooooo. I’m scared.
I WILL WATCH IT IN A MINUTE. Probably.
I do really, really want to enjoy some fandom time, playing and RPing and writing and reading, without the sense of omg I should be writing that fic. I’ve not been on Tumblr since Hallowe’en. I haven’t seen the new Star Wars. I haven’t seen Thor. So going on my FFXV Tumblr at least is gonna involve being enjoyably spoiled. And I love these characters so much, I want some more time with them.
But noooooo. OMG the trailer alone, it gives me so many feelings.
The music! Iggy so brave and alone! Ardyn’s “what good is a world that only lets you down?” (Ugh fucking RP giving me feelings about that shit.) Iggy and Ardyn briefly working together??? ‘Master Your Fate’ as an Iggy tagline. “I swore an oath to stand with Noct and keep him safe. Whatever it takes, I will protect him!” couwrhfiyarho;afewjsqubdauwedhf;w’efmprwngfuoaerh
And also, the fan theory that Iggy’s blindness isn’t an injury, but a price exacted because he used the Ring to help Noctis looks like it’s gonna be confirmed. And maybe my favourite one, that Luna’s death comes from that too - that Iggy swaps her life for Noct’s, and then never tells him. I love that partly, btw, because there are a few points where Iggy really reminds me of Giles to Noct’s Buffy, despite being more of a big-brother in age. The ruthless strategist to his young chosen warrior. So almost a version of what happens to Ben, or what Giles and Wesley both did again and again - making the ruthless choices necessary to save the world, the ones Buffy or Noct never could - that seems perfect.
But whatever it is, I know I’m gonna cry.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH